stop talking or i kill you...

new life n it still suck and become more and more suck...

im trying to be somebody else..im stuck with the people i don't like and every day things become worst..i really down and i hate everyone..but i still with my poker face pretending im ok n i love hanging out with them... i had enough being treat this way...its like "ahh its oke..she will never mad at us...she couldn't mad at us..shes so kind n i never she going mad or angry..." or "she couldn't mad at me becoz im always by her side..helping her...understands her.. noe all thing bout her..." shut up ur mother fu**ker thought and stop making faces when im angry with you..ur are the worst person ever that i ever knew..i wish i could erase the person from my life..so it could be easier and serene..

grr last night is the third times this month i dream i killed someone...maybe the anger feeling of mine is overloaded and its transfer into my dream..i didn't wish to kill them..im just wanted them to be gone from my life..gosh...i hate loud person.......

try to be strong

new year started with my worries still growing

everything goes wrong..nothing i do turn up right

its really frustrating ..i really hope the path i choose are the right one

because i can't turning back again to the way it was..

i think this is the biggest,hardest,and the fastest choice i ever made..

this thing really freaking me out and im scare..

im really scare right now..i told others to be strong...they can do it as long they set their mind up..and i try to be strong so everybody can be strong too..but right now, i really feel like crying because im really scare..my body are shaking when i notice the time and day pass by..my mind started to fill with all kind of thought ..good and bad stuff but mostly bad stuff..huhuh..god pls give me courage so i can be strong to survive..insyaallah i can be strong so i can achieve my dreams..

i really hope things will go smoothly after this...

my sis

this poem is dedicated for on9 shopaholic


my sis
my sis like to sell things
my sis like to make craft
my sis make all kind of craft using felt cloth
my sis sell her craft
my sis has a blog
my sis sell her handmade craft in her blog
my sis also sell clothes
my sis sell cute women clothes
my sis blog is www.theladiesdayout.blogspot.com
my sis said who like to buy or to see the item her selling
just check out her blogspot.
my sis also said that u'll like it..
just check out and u won't be regret it.
^^

my first time

yo wussup guys!!
hahah this is my 1st post...hahah the titlle will give such misunderstanding for certain people...if u know what im mean.."first time" get it? get it?..hahaha
i dun think i want to talk much..but im not talking rite now..im just typing...hahahah
while listen to 1 of my totally not favorite song but i still listen to it over n over again
i thought of something..i think i want to create a blog..hahhaa..actually i already had sign up this blogger website since.. even i dun remember when but i think it had been years ago..im just not ready to post anything back then..since i dun know what to write and what to tell..even now i dun know what to write..im just type randomly what im thinking in my mind rite now...hahah isnt that blog is suppose to be rite? write bout anything u had in mind..
couple years back then i used to think that blog r for people who like everyone to know what they thinking and feel just like public diary and place for some people talk about others people
but now my mind set are change.. i admit it..i do want people to know what im thinking and what im feeling..becoz people now r more optimist..am i right?hahaha that is just some of my thought..i dun know bout others...
opss
i think i hav type to much...hahah
ok la..since i doesnt on9 every day.. n i dun always hav things in my mind to write bout.
dun expect me to frequently update my blog...because im just write for fun..oke thx!! ^^
see u later!!

nyau nyau ^^